Showing posts with label my music. Show all posts
Showing posts with label my music. Show all posts

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

Long time no...


So it's been a while since I have written anything...I could say that nothing remarkable has happened but that would just be a big fat lie. Cause shit loads of things have happened during the past few months. Well I think I should announce that I am not a habitant of Finland anymore. On the day of my last final exam at school I booked my flights to Paris. Why? Because I happened to get cheap flights and I have always known that I would someday live in France so it made sense. I didn't plan it. It didn't even cross my mind ever before the day I booked my flights. So that's the story. Nothing mysterious behind it. It was time to say bye bye to Finland. As much as I love you, I hate you more. Finland is good but good is not enough. I need awesome, brilliant, disgusting, strange, astonishing, shocking, weird, outstanding, slimy, multicultural, rich, poor, extreme. And during my stay I have so far seen things and met people that can be labeled into more than one of those categories.

I found this open mic event here which is held on weekly basis at a Scottish pub called The Highlander. I went there on my first day here and I was welcomed there with such warmth that I decided to go there every week. So far I have been there three times. I missed it once but I guess they forgave me. The standards are very high there. It's not like one of those open mics where people clap their hands because they feel sympathetic. It's because most of the musicians there are amazingly gifted. It's very inspiring and motivating.

All the prejudices that were fed to me before coming to Paris have been forgotten. I haven't met any rude people here. Everybody's just very warm and welcoming. Maybe not as welcoming and warm like in Galway (Ireland) but I can't say anything bad about the French. There's plenty of things going on everywhere. I even got to meet my favorite band from the UK called Athlete and saw their gig at Le Nouveau Casino in Paris. It was amazing. They really knew how to make their audience happy. I have never had such great time at a gig. They were so humorous and fun on the stage! I still remember the moment when I discovered Athlete. Saw their music video for '24 hours' on TV while babysitting Sean in the country side of Western Ireland and as soon as we got back to the city I went and bought all their albums. I only knew one song by them but I knew that it was gonna be worth buying the CD's. And I wasn't wrong. Since then I followed Athlete and now two albums later I got to meet them. It felt so unreal!

Paris is so inspiring. I haven't written anything really. But the atmosphere is so different. On the other hand it's like anywhere else but then again it's so new and exciting. I just love being in a place where you can meet anyone anytime. Anyone can be anyone. A handsome guy who just passed you by might be a great movie star on vacation. Or the strange looking old woman might be the head editor of Vogue. God knows you can bump into Angelina Jolie or Brad Pitt. By the way someone told me they live here! I don't run after celebrities but the point is that here all that is normal. Is normal to be anyone. If you are someone you are still just anyone. Does it make any sense?

I have decided to record my EP during the following year. I wanna have it done by the end of 2010. I got so inspired by the idea that I made a brand new song a few nights ago. It's very different from my previous ones. And I like it. I think it has some future potential. It has more meaning to me right now than any of my other songs. This song is called 'The Countdown'. The lyrics are written in the earlier post. For the first time I feel like I don't wanna record a shit demo. I wanna make something proper. This song is something that I might not publish before it's perfect. For some reason I wanna make it perfect. All the songs before this one have been more like experimenting. I strongly sense that I'm finally heading to the right direction with my music. I'm starting to find myself. And I'm so glad cause I've been prepared to wait for it to happen much much longer. I knew it would happen someday. If I had a schedule I would say that this one is right on time.

What else. I guess nothing else.

Here's some random photographs. Enjoy your lives!




















Sunday, July 26, 2009

Itkee nauraa rakastaa

Download here

Astui asfalttiin paidassa punaisessa
Näki maailmaa menneisyyden kuvilla

Siellä hän seisoo pitkästä aikaa
Tuoksunsa sateisen metsän ja mustikoiden säilynyt on
Voi kun sais hetken sitä lapsuuden taikaa
Aikuisena lapsuuden elänyt se onneton

Joskus se itkee
Joskus se nauraa
Harvoin se rakastaa

Jälkiään katsonut ei
Tapahtumat tajunnan vei
Onnensa löysi kerran toisenkin
Tilapäinen kuitenkin

Joskus se itkee
Joskus se nauraa
Harvoin se rakastaa

Siellä hän seisoo pitkästä aikaa
Tuoksunsa sateisen metsän ja mustikoiden säilynyt on
Voi kun sais hetken sitä lapsuuden taikaa
Aikuisena lapsuuden elänyt se onneton

Joskus se itkee
Joskus se nauraa
Harvoin se rakastaa

Joskus se itkee
Joskus se nauraa
Harvoin se rakastaa

Joskus se itkee
Joskus se nauraa
Harvoin se rakastaaa

Friday, July 24, 2009

Rakkaus ei hallitse mua

Dowload it here

Suljen sydämen kii
Menikö se taas niin
Hetki sitten oltiin vielä
Erottomasti

Sielun hauraan mä sain
Suruja vain, iloja ei lain
Kovasti villiintyy
Mut heikosti laantuu
Tunteeni sinua kohtaan
Taantuu

Kun rakkaus ei hallitse mua
Näen selvästi etten tarvii sua
Ollaan maista vieraista
Älä sano toisenlaista

Ja sä huomaat
Ettei saakaan
Tyttö tää luokses tulemaan
Mä vain huokaan
Etten pysty
Vartaloas enää koskettaa

Avaan portin uuden
Oven maailmaan toisenlaisen
Vaikka kuinka mietin
Järkeä ei tee
Ja mä meen

Kaipauksesta
Pitkä onni
Riippuvaisuus hellittää
Mut heikosti laantuu
Tunteeni
Taantuu

Kun rakkaus ei hallitse mua
Näen selvästi etten tarvii sua
Ollaan maista vieraista
Älä sano toisenlaista

Ja sä huomaat
Ettei saakaan
Tyttö tää luokses tulemaan
Mä vain huokaan
Etten pysty
Vartaloas enää koskettaa

Friday, June 26, 2009

Praise the Lord

Listen here and download mp3 here.

I praise the lord that we got separated in the past
I don't believe in him
But if there's something
I thank for that
I wonder how I could see you the way I did
Cos now you're ugly
So freaking ugly to me

Senseless theories
Cannot be explained
Even by you
Or the ones you learned from
You call them opinions
You've read some books
No heart to use
It's the easy way that you choose

Your thoughts are ugly
It makes you ugly to me
Simple human being
Too simple to hate it
Your face is ugly
Words from your mouth are stupid
You look so ugly
So fucking ugly to me

Don't wanna change myself
Even though I know I could
Especially always when I think of you

Cause you are ugly
From inside out
Simply disgusting
You can't change it
Your thoughts are ugly
It makes you ugly to me
Simple human being
Too simple to hate it

Saturday, May 23, 2009

Recording session

Hilipatihei!

Olin tänään ystäväni Vanessan luona luomassa musiikkia. Meidän on tarkoitus nauhottaa urheiluhenkinen biisi, Vanessa on nimittäin seiväshyppääjä myös sen lisäksi että sattuu olemaan aivan jumalallinen laulaja ja säveltäjä.

Tsekatkaa Vanessan MySpace klikkaamalla tätä. Uuden biisin 'Shoot us' demoversio ladattavissa tästä.

Friday, May 22, 2009

Shoot us


We've been through
Some bad times
But this time
I'm terrified

Is this really happening
My freedom
Is being taken away


You don't give a damn about us people
Just drag our lives away
You are needles in the hay
When the fire starts

Is it true that
You would shoot us
When the rope loosens up a bit
You can't control this shit
And we could have it all

Last chance
Is final
Don't force us to blow it up

There's no one else to fight this fight
Im gonna be sure
I'll make us survive

Wednesday, May 6, 2009

Replace me


If you had known me a little bit better
Baby you would cry
So I see one of the reasons
This shit ain't worth a try

Why bother and keep talking to you
Your mind is too blind to see

I was the one who bought the flowers
Who the hell was I
Supposing you to be the man
But you were just a marshmallow dipped in First Price wine

It's been three days and I'm already over you
If you'd read my mind you would see

This doesn't hurt so much
I didn't even want your touch
And now you've burned your mark on me
You don't understand the way I feel
You shall go and replace me
With someone new

It's all incredibly sad
Save your nagging
Save it for someone who is willing to listen
The fun side of this is that you'll never realize
How senseless you are

It hasn't been that long and I am so over you
If you'd read my mind you would see


Saturday, May 2, 2009

Party is OVER!

Päätin tulla nyt sit pilaamaan kaikkien vappuhuvitukset/krapulajuhlan tällaisella viiltelylaululla. Tän biisinriekaleen tein joskus, koskaan en tehnyt valmiiksi. Kannattaako vaivautua? Let me know.

Tein tän mun hyvälle ystävälle, jonka läheinen kuoli. Jos joku keksii jatkoa tälle, niin mulle vain sähköpostia.

Eventually

I know, you know
That my heart bleeds when you tell me he's gone
I could cry now but tears won't appear on my face
Cause I've been raised too well to go through good and bad
We can talk now or later but I know that in time
You will have to remember his name

So let go of your fears and replace them with tears
That's the only way that you can move on
Eventually you'll see that you can be free
And that's the only way that you can move on


Wednesday, April 29, 2009

Twisted and confused.

I posted this yesterday but deleted it since I felt like it was too personal and negative...but, whatever. Here we go.

I've had this weird feeling for a little while now and as it grows I'm starting to feel physically sick. My music. I had this talk with a guy who's in the industry and he put all these strange thoughts into my head, since then I've been more or less fucked up in my head.

What the HECK am I going to do? I wanna make a career out of this but what kinda choices I should make to make it actually happen. Should I make more commercial music, maybe that's where the money lays. Maybe I should just do something totally different knowing that there's only a tiny little chance that many people will absolutely love it. Otherwise it's gonna be me playing for my mom's pupils for the rest of my miserable life.

Maybe my music IS commercial? Maybe that's just who I happen to be and I should take a full advantage of it. Or maybe I should just relentlessly rape my music and start writing lyrics in Finnish. Okay, that's never gonna happen. Recently I tried to figure out a backing track for my new song and my mind was totally blank. All I came up with was this pathetic shitty four chord piano thingy , which is repeated in every single cheesy Westlife song you could imagine.

There should be more to this. I should be able give more.

Whatever I will end up doing it has to come from the heart. But what the hell I am to do when I don't even know who I am! All I know is that right now I'm only able to think in English. WTF.

Saturday, April 11, 2009

Sunshine came out today

Oltiin ystäväni Pepen kanssa tänään Turun Nummessa nauttimassa kauan kaivatusta kevätauringosta. Ostettiin ärrältä eväät ja kiivettiin kallion kielekkeelle ihastelemaan ohikulkevaa liikennettä. Otin mun elektroakustisen mukaan, koska tarkoituksena oli vielä kalliosessioiden jälkeen mennä Christianin luo käymään läpi jotain biisejä ja myöhemmin sitten viedä kitara Jussille, sillä raukalla kun ei omaa metallikielistä ole. Jalomielisenä olen päättänyt ryhtyä kauppaamaan kyseistä kitaraa hänelle. Jussi ottaa Annin kitaran koesoitolle, eikö niin? ;)

Soitettiin niin kauan, että sormet kohmettuivat tunnottomiksi. Tälläinen videopätkä tuli: