The Countdown

Sometimes I know that I should calm down
Strip off the crazy trips and stick around
Like my mother used to do
Like the others do
Like my brother does today
And his girlfriend too

My heart is itching for a countdown
I cannot rest before it comes around
While I wait
I'm racing
My heart rate keeps upgrading
And my feelings change so fast

Sometimes I break down
Sometimes I spin high
I'm just a girl
Who either flies
Or dies

When I was child I never slept tight
Endless distraction was to keep me up
My mother used to tell
What the others do
And my brother was so bright
And I should be too

So I found out about the countdown
Started getting ready
And never calmed down

Airplane

High high high...

I know it's mad
It might not make no sense at all
But when I think about your airplane
I fall
Into a place where clouds seem reachable
I need no ladders I can reach them all

Fly fly fly me away
Captain of airplane
My sweet sweet plans are not to wait
Fly fly fly me away
Wings of an airplane
They lift me up so high

I don't know what you do
Why I behave this way
I don't know what to say
I'd better smile away

When you act sick
For just to hear my song
So freaking evil but I play along
You got me dreaming
You got me dreaming so bad

Fly fly fly me away...

If There Would Be No You

If there would be no you
I would be alright
If there would be no you
I would smile right now
I could lose or win
I could quit or begin

You were a lover
I was a friend...
You were a lover to me
I was just a friend to you

To be loved by you
What's a dream to do
You have no clue
What my heart could do
I am good without you
I can be without you

You were a lover
I was a friend...

Du du du du du du dum...

I could lose or win
I could quit or begin

You were lover
I was friend...

You were lover to me
I was just a friend for you
What to do
You were my lover

When I seek to hide

You know how easily I'm set free
You know how much I want to fly
I've lived a lifetime in a while
Be my guide
When I seek to hide

Tell me your secret
I will keep it
If you're sure where your heart is
You might as well share it
With mine
Cause I can't excuse myself
Anymore

If one more lonesome year goes by
I cannot help but break and cry
Will I ever
What if I will never
Feel my heart

Tell me your secret
Swear I'll keep it
If you're sure where your heart is
You might as well share it
With mine
Cause I can't excuse myself
Anymore

You touched my heart

Tell me your secret
I will keep it
If you're sure where your heart is
You might as well share it
With mine
Cause I can't excuse myself
Anymore

Be my guide
When I seek to hide

Itkee nauraa rakastaa

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Näki maailmaa menneisyyden kuvilla

Siellä hän seisoo pitkästä aikaa
Tuoksunsa sateisen metsän ja mustikoiden säilynyt on
Voi kun sais hetken sitä lapsuuden taikaa
Aikuisena lapsuuden elänyt se onneton

Joskus se itkee
Joskus se nauraa
Harvoin se rakastaa

Jälkiään katsonut ei
Tapahtumat tajunnan vei
Onnensa löysi kerran toisenkin
Tilapäinen kuitenkin

Joskus se itkee
Joskus se nauraa
Harvoin se rakastaa

Siellä hän seisoo pitkästä aikaa
Tuoksunsa sateisen metsän ja mustikoiden säilynyt on
Voi kun sais hetken sitä lapsuuden taikaa
Aikuisena lapsuuden elänyt se onneton

Joskus se itkee
Joskus se nauraa
Harvoin se rakastaa

Joskus se itkee
Joskus se nauraa
Harvoin se rakastaa

Joskus se itkee
Joskus se nauraa
Harvoin se rakastaaa

Rakkaus ei hallitse mua

Dowload it here

Suljen sydämen kii
Menikö se taas niin
Hetki sitten oltiin vielä
Erottomasti

Sielun hauraan mä sain
Suruja vain, iloja ei lain
Kovasti villiintyy
Mut heikosti laantuu
Tunteeni sinua kohtaan
Taantuu

Kun rakkaus ei hallitse mua
Näen selvästi etten tarvii sua
Ollaan maista vieraista
Älä sano toisenlaista

Ja sä huomaat
Ettei saakaan
Tyttö tää luokses tulemaan
Mä vain huokaan
Etten pysty
Vartaloas enää koskettaa

Avaan portin uuden
Oven maailmaan toisenlaisen
Vaikka kuinka mietin
Järkeä ei tee
Ja mä meen

Kaipauksesta
Pitkä onni
Riippuvaisuus hellittää
Mut heikosti laantuu
Tunteeni
Taantuu

Kun rakkaus ei hallitse mua
Näen selvästi etten tarvii sua
Ollaan maista vieraista
Älä sano toisenlaista

Ja sä huomaat
Ettei saakaan
Tyttö tää luokses tulemaan
Mä vain huokaan
Etten pysty
Vartaloas enää koskettaa

Yellow House

If I looked for a home tonight
Could I come to your house
Would it be alright

I'm young
But I do understand
What's built in my dreams
Is not in your plan
Not in your yellow house

If I was a big bad mess tonight
Would you still see me,
As the girl you used to like?

You could go all over the world
Raise every single skirt
In the morning
No one whispers in your ear like me

I'm young
But I do understand
What's built in my dreams
Is not in your plan
Not in the yellow house

I'm a hurricane
At least just as strong
Today
I got worn away

If I looked for a home tonight
Could I sleep in your house
Would it be alright?

Cynical,desperate, lost, young, in a way naive

Got flashbacks from past when I read through all my diaries
Pages filled up with glued pictures and memories
Now I don't write a thing cos I've become a brand new me
Cynical, desperate, lost, young, still in a way naive

Cynical, desperate, lost, young, still in a way naive
I want back the burn in me heart so I can sing again
Dreams I won't fail, I will give more than all of me
Cynical, desperate, lost young, get away from me

You think you did know me but you didn't actually know a thing
Cynical, desperate, lost, young, still in a way naive
I'm able to grow but you'll be stuck in your old habit

Cynical, desperate, lost, young, be no longer me

Praise the Lord

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I praise the lord that we got separated in the past
I don't believe in him
But if there's something
I thank for that
I wonder how I could see you the way I did
Cos now you're ugly
So freaking ugly to me

Senseless theories
Cannot be explained
Even by you
Or the ones you learned from
You call them opinions
You've read some books
No heart to use
It's the easy way that you choose

Your thoughts are ugly
It makes you ugly to me
Simple human being
Too simple to hate it
Your face is ugly
Words from your mouth are stupid
You look so ugly
So fucking ugly to me

Don't wanna change myself
Even though I know I could
Especially always when I think of you

Cause you are ugly
From inside out
Simply disgusting
You can't change it
Your thoughts are ugly
It makes you ugly to me
Simple human being
Too simple to hate it

Saved

I feel like we're moving too fast
Too many years have gone past
I wanna freeze this moment and just sit down
Tired to keep going on

I've dropped a few tears since I've been home
Wiped them quickly away
And I'm not saying that I have been alone
But it's been a quiet road to walk on

When I look back I wanna cherish the day
When I got out of the place that I hated
And when I lay down I wanna fly away
Into the arms of the country that saved me

Have to confess that I hide
Behind these faithful eyes
I wonder, is it just a some state that I'm in
Or will I never be satisfied

But when I smile
I do it cause I'm glad that I'm here
And that's what makes my life worthwhile
I know I've left some people back behind
But that's the way that I live my life

And when I look back I wanna cherish the day
When I got out of the place that I hated
And when I lay down I wanna fly away
Into the arms of the country that saved me

Shoot us

We've been through
Some bad times
But this time
I'm terrified

Is this really happening
My freedom
Is being taken away

You don't give a damn about us people
Just drag our lives away
You are needles in the hay
When the fire starts

Is it true that
You would shoot us
When the rope loosens up a bit
You can't control this shit
And we could have it all

Last chance
Is final
Don't force us to blow it up

There's no one else to fight this fight
Im gonna be sure
I'll make us survive

Replace me

If you had known me a little bit better
Baby you would cry
So I see one of the reasons
This shit ain't worth a try

Why bother and keep talking to you
Your mind is too blind to see

I was the one who bought the flowers
Who the hell was I
Supposing you to be the man
But you were just a marshmallow dipped in First Price wine

It's been three days and I'm already over you
If you'd read my mind you would see

This doesn't hurt so much
I didn't even want your touch
And now you've burned your mark on me
You don't understand the way I feel
You shall go and replace me
With someone new

It's all incredibly sad
Save your nagging
Save it for someone who is willing to listen
The fun side of this is that you'll never realize
How senseless you are

It hasn't been that long and I am so over you
If you'd read my mind you would see

Replace me

It doesn't hurt so much
I didn't even want your touch
And now you've burned your mark on me

You don't understand the way I feel
You shall go and replace me
With someone new

Party is OVER!

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Eventually

I know, you know
That my heart bleeds when you tell me he's gone
I could cry now but tears won't appear on my face
Cause I've been raised too well to go through good and bad
We can talk now or later but I know that in time
You will have to remember his name

So let go of your fears and replace them with tears
That's the only way that you can move on
Eventually you'll see that you can be free
And that's the only way that you can move on

Cease

I don't know where I am going
My feet won't stop although I'm trying
They say I must keep running
I feel like I'm just slowing down

Why my body will stop breathing
If my soul is still alive
Is it true that there's a meaning
To this life

Let it out
Let it out
Let it out
There will be some traces of you around
Say it out aloud
What goes around will come back to me
Say it out
Say it out
Say it out

Have to keep my eyes wide open
While I'm still able to see
Have to stop and start to listen
As long as my ears can hear

I cannot sleep when I start to wonder
How all this have to end someday
Is it true that there's a meaning
Or will our hearts just cease and die